what's the sitch?

sooorr, seeing as though i basically have a benign brain tumor, life is a bit different for me now than it was a year and a half ago. while my neuro team sent me off with a few words of wisdom and "no restrictions", i still feel the need to sometimes restrict myself. one of the sillier ones that has taken me the longest time to get over was the fear of sneezing. i swear i thought my head would pop right off my body any time i had to sneeze so i would do it in a super weird way or try to hold it in until it went away. not fun. one of the more serious ones that i (try) to adhere to is not letting myself get stressed. if u know me irl, that might sound laughable, but reminding myself that "it is what it is" (peep the url) and "everything happens for a reason" really help me when i'm about to spiral. there are so many things out of our control, and things will happen whether i worry about them or not.

it's taken me about a year to really figure out what my baseline is and how certain things affect me, but for the most part it feels like it never even happened. even saying that now is insane because for the first 4 months after getting out of the hospital i would look through my hospital pics at least 4 times a day just totally bewilderded. most of them are pretty intense so enjoy that pic of my brain scan and my lil cav instead! overall, 9/10 would not recommend a brain hemmy but i have to give my hospital a point because i genuinely did not want to leave on discharge day... like i was in tears. the food? bomb. the nurses? my besties. the warm blankies? unbeatable. the doctors? five stars. the view? incredible. friendliness? off the charts. 10/10 experience for my 6 week hospital stay.

anywho, now that i'm recovered and fully on my own schedule, i'm super excited to see what i can do and how far i can push myself while taking it one day at a time!