influencer DUUPE?!

i've wanted to be a youtuber for like the past 11 years. over those 11 years, i've acquired quite the setup. i have the ring light, i have the iphone camera, i even have a camcorder. the problem is that i am simply too unserious to sit down and film. it feels so weird to talk to an inanimate object while squinting into a bright light for 10 minutes. i just can't do it. when i discovered vlogging, i was positive that was going to be my life. i absolutely love the idea of being a vlogger, but i go back and forth between consistently filming throughout my day and uploading right away to completely forgetting about it and being unable to watch the videos back. i think if i can get over the hump and a) not care what people think about me if/when i film in public, b) not cringe when someone i know tells me they watched my video, and c) actually leave the house to do something vlog-worthy, this whole youtube thing could really work for me. buuuut at the same time, i don't really want people knowing everything i'm doing or feeling like i need to record everything just to make money or have a career. i feel like it takes some of the joy out of living. like u can't even be spontaneous because u need to make sure every moment is captured. it feels a lil disingenous sometimes, and that's not what i'm goin for. so enter blogging. one thing about me - i love writing. love it. i've tried to start a few blogs over the years but could never figure out my niche and then got too frustrated to continue (i'm an all-or-nothing-it-has-to-be-perfect kinda gal). however, i had an epiphany this week and realized that i don't have to narrow it down to a super specific topic, i can cover them all! travel nostalgia? check! health updates? check! future plans? check! anything that pops into my mind? check! all in one blog? incredible! i don't know why i didn't think of this before but i'm feelin rlly good about it this time - can't wait to see where it takes me!!